Cobalt

Food Journal Entry #4

2008-06-30T23:03:48Z

June 30, 2008.

Dinner, 7pm.

Grilled Cheese sandwhich, bordens cheese and whole wheat bread.

Heart burn, nausea, and pain in lower right quadrant of the abdomen.

Food Journal Entry: #3

2008-06-30T17:45:10Z

June 30th, 2008 - 1pm.

Baby carots and Ranch Dip. No sickness!

Food Journal Entry #2.

2008-06-30T02:04:20Z

DINNER - 7-ish.

Chicken soup with onions, carrots, and tiny little noodles.

Didn't make me sick.

DESERT - 10-ish.
A little bit of caramel flavored coffee drink, and a hostess cupcake. So far no problems.

Food Journal Entry: #1

2008-06-29T16:43:49Z

I've been having issues when I eat lately, most everything I eat makes me sick so I'm now going to make posts on what does and does not make me sick to see if I can find a pattern.

June 29th, 2008. Sunday 11ish
White bread pita, stuffed with lots of shreaded lettuce, grilled chicken, pickles, sour-cream and salsa.

Did NOT make me sick.

blindseeking @ 2008-06-28T18:53:00

2008-06-28T22:54:37Z

I feel like this sometimes:

http://www.south20th.com/index.php?date=2008-06-22

And sometimes I feel like this:

http://www.kiwisbybeat.com/minus12.html

But mostly I just feel like this:

http://www.kiwisbybeat.com/minus99.html

Dear Christine.

2008-06-27T22:54:29Z

Dear Christine,

I'm very sad you're moving to Orlando, I'm going to miss having you physically at the games with us. I'm going to miss sharing books with you as well. Even though I didn't do it so often there are plenty of books that now that I think about it I would like to share with you. The Live of Dax by several different people. The Tanya Huff vampire novels. I'm also kind of sad you never lent me any of your Emma Holly books. ;) I'm saddened that I never got to meet your cats, their antics on your journal make them sound very amusing. I wish we had gotten to go see movies together more often. I really enjoyed seeing I Am Legend with you. We haven't shared music, and I think we should, as I love sharing music.

I'm going to miss you.

-Ashley.

Hehe..!

2008-06-25T11:21:14Z

If my life were to be a movie or a play, I'd want it to be a violently tongue-in-cheek musical that involved the audience.

Preferably against their will.

Sucker Punch, Straight To The Gut.

2008-06-24T13:45:25Z

Architect: Imaginos says "When you get to see your wife again?"
Architect: Brentwood says "Couple weeks."

Life just marches on, and the people I felt important move on without me. If feel like I know absolutely nothing and no one. Where are all my friends?

Why do I let people slip through my fingers so easily?

Book.

2008-06-21T17:24:12Z

I highly recommend 'A Great and Terrible Beauty' by Libba Bray. I've sent my copy off with mariness.

But there is a passage later in the books about Felicity that made me smile a great deal. Talking about power and how girls of that age were expected to act in a certain way not for their own good but because people were afraid of what they could become.

Also I highly recommend 'Welcome Home' by Coheed and Cambria if you need a new song to listen to.

Blast From The Past: RP Log.

2008-06-10T09:43:49Z

Samovar Apartments
Penthouse

The entire room is open with the only walls being those around the bathroom facilities. The demarcations for the different areas are fluid and changeable. The kitchen is in the center of the floor and against one wall with a cooking island in the middle and a counter with stools running the length of the kitchen area. Next to this kitchen area is the dining area, with a large table that seats at least 12. At least. One one side of the center is the rec area and lounging area. On the other is the sleeping area, with an enormous round bed, low to the floor. The front and back windows offer a stunning view of the city from this 9th floor location.

Places are set here. See '+help places' for help. Views are set here. See '+help +view' for help.

Trinity has arrived.
Zane has arrived.

Jolene doesn't say a word on the drive. Her power leaks slightly, but she doesn't say anything. She simply motions for Trinity to follow her once they get to the apartments. She leads them up to the penthouse. Once inside of the door she walks into the livingroom and peels off her sweater. She drops it to the ground and stands in her bra and her jeans. Her arm sheaths are visible now. And the knife at her back. She peels off her sheaths, including the one at her back, and tosses them onto the couch. Then grabs a knife and stares at Trinity. Her power lets go now. And it fills into the room. It's like warm dry breeze on a very cold, very wet day. It's comforting and caring. Meant to soothe and calm. Still she says nothing.

Trinity follows, likewise in silence. She doesn't get too close to Jolene, either on the trip, or once they are home. In the jeep, she stares out the window, chewing at her lip, uncomfortable to be so close to the Lupa. She watches at Jolene removes her sweater, and shivers at the sight of the knives, and visibly quails as Jolene looks at her with a knife in hand. The feel of Jolene's power filling the room makes her uneasy, even as her wolf settles down easily, feeling the comfort and the care. Part of Trinity, though, is still uneasy, her gaze flickering from the knife in the Lupa's hand, to her face. She silently waits for Jolene to say, or do something.

Zane is well behind the jeep, having waited to make sure the jeep was gone, before he boarded his big rental vehicle. He parks in his slot in the garage, and heads to first the ninth floor, then finally to the penthouse.

Faith has arrived.

Jolene is standing with her shirt off infront of Trinity. Her pale blue sweater has been dropped onto the floor. Most of the southerner's knives are on the couch sheathed. However, one concealed within its sheath stands in Jolene's hand. The Lupa's power is pressed into the room, comforting and warm. Like a warm breeze on a cold day. Meant to calm, and soothe.

Jolene's power fills the room until there is not a space not being touched. It's soft and it's warm and it's caring. - It's comforting. Jolene's mask of impassiveness fades now. What’s left is utter misery and desperation. She unsheathes the knife with tears in her eyes. Her voice is soft as she says, "Ah am Lupa. Ah am yar guardian. Ah am your refuge, Ah am your peace. Ah will stand with you against all harm. Yar enemies are mah enemies." The blade is silver by the smell, probably high content. She stretches out her left arm and presses the blade into her flesh just below her elbow joint and she says, "Ah share blood," In one quick motion she slices down her arm, opening it up. The blood flows hot from the cut. Dropping onto and staining her pale blue sweater. "An' Flesh," She jerks the knife up through her skin and cuts off some of her own flesh. "With ya. We are Lukoi. We are pack."

She's trembling now. Even as her power caresses against Trinity's wolf. Calms it even before the smell of blood, the sense of pain can be felt. The bloodied knife is dropped onto Jolene's sweater. And she asks, "Do ya see how much Ah love ya now?" There is something almost desperate in Jolene's voice.

Trinity blinks as she watches Jolene, unsure of what is happening, of what she is witnessing, but as she watches, and listens, she trembles, and shakes her head, her thoughts jumbled and confused, refusing to make sense to her, right now. She flinches as Jolene cuts herself, moving forward, as if she would stop it, if she could. Her wolf perks up at the first spill of blood, but, Jolene's power calms her down, though there is that alert attentiveness to her now, a flaring of nostrils, and a thump of metaphysical tail at it all. Trinity stares, wide eyed at Jolene, and shakes her head, "What...why are you doing this? I don't understand." She whispers, "If you...why don't you trust me, though? Why did you have to take something that made me happy away from me?" Tears fill her eyes, and she can't help but ask the question. "I...I know my place, even as I knew it before. I knew that all I had was way down the list of affections. I didn't want anymore than what I had, and you took that away. You hurt me, Jolene." Her words remain soft, and whispered, even as she takes an unconscious step closer, her eyes flickering to the blood flowing from Jolene's arm. "I don't...I don't know what to think, or do..."

Faith walks in, soon enough to see all of this happen. She walks up, and puts her hands gently on Trinity's shoulders. "You don't know your place. You -assume- a place. And you assume the wrong place. We don't want you way down the list. Jolene has just tried to tell you, using words and symbols that are sacred to her, that you are a valued member of her pack. You are a loved and wanted daughter of her family. Please, please, listen to her."

Zane comes into the penthouse, looking much healthier than he has in quite some time. He almost trips, at the feel of power so heavy in the room, and at the blood scent. He moves to Jolene's side, and stands, silently. watching Jolene, watching Faith, and watching Trinity.

"Hurtin' ya was not mah intention." Jolene says weakly, emotionally weak. The blood will flow for quite sometime. It was deep, a silver knife did it, and then she sliced off a good chunk of her flesh. Her voice is filled with tears as she says, "Ah offer ya mah blood. Ah offer ya mah flesh. Ah offer ya mah life. Ah would rather hurt mahself than hurt ya. Ah didn't want ta take somethin' away from ya Trinity. Ah wanted ta find happiness. /Real/ happiness. Wha' can Ah do ta prove it to ya? Ah want ya here. Ah love ya. Ah wan' ya're happiness. Ya're not at the bottom'a mah lists." She's crying openly name. She holds out her arm to Trinity and she asks, "Do ya accept mah love?"

Her power still doesn't let up. It brushes and comforts, or at least tries, anyone that it comes in contact with. Her beast is still and close to her. Looking just as wounded as the woman. Her eyes have bleed to the yellow color of her beast, probably because of using her power so extensively. She asks softly, "Do ya wanna try Trinity? Ta not only understand me. But ta give me a chance ta understand you?"

Trinity glances at Faith as she comes in, listening to what she is saying, and then to Zane, as he comes in. Then her attention is focused on Jolene, and she blinks, not sure she understands exactly what the Lupa is offering her. Does she mean this literally? The sight of Jolene crying, the smell of the blood, and the feel of the power make Trinity dizzy, and she closes her eyes for a moment. She takes a deep breath, and moves closer to Jolene, her expression still confused, but she is playing this all by ear. Her wolf, however, is sure that this is quite literal, and the urge Trinity has to lick at the blood flowing from Jolene's arm is almost overwhelming. She staggers slightly, and she looks at Jolene, truly looks at her, and her own eyes fill with tears, and she nods, slowly, licking at her lips without realizing it, so intense is the urge to lick at the Lupa's arm. "I...I have a chance...a chance to know my real family, I think. If it's all-true, then, I'll have somewhere else to go. But, I don't want that. I want to stay here, because, this is my life, now. I want to know my past, yes, but, I thought that it would be something that might make everyone else happy, if I had an alternative. I don't want that. I want to stay here, if you'll have me stay. I am realizing that this is where I belong, and really my family now. I...what do I do, Jolene? Tell me, and I'll do it." She bows her head, and accepts this.

Faith releases Trinity's shoulders, and moves to press herself against Zane. Her power withdraws, as tightly around Faith herself as she currently has the skill to twine it, and she allows Jolene's power to soothe her. As if she has a choice.

Zane puts an arm around Faith, and an arm around Jolene. He wraps his power lightly around Trinity's power, instead of around the young woman herself. A murmured, "Eat, for this is my body. Drink, for this is my blood. Show you accept the offering, accept the protection, accept that you are a part of our family."

Jolene closes her eyes slowly and she says, "Ya do belong here. We're ya family." The blood hasn't stopped bleeding just yet. But then silver wounds, that deep tend to bleed until cared for her. She swallows softly and she says, "Share mah blood, daughter. An' know Ah bleed for ya now, as Ah will in the future. - Out of Love." She's trembling again. Her voice is soft as she speaks after Zane, "It is yar choice. Stay or go. Ah love ya, an' wan' ya here. But only iffin ya wanna be here." Her arm is still healed out. The flesh has curled at her elbow, easily picked off. Jolene's shudders get more and more violent.

Trinity swallows hard as Zane speaks, but, her eyes never leave Jolene's face. She nods, and takes a deep breath, moving closer, reaching out to gently take hold of Jolene's outstretched hand. She drops to her knees, tears filling her eyes, and streaking her cheeks as she bends her head to the wound Jolene has inflicted upon herself, and she laps at the blood that flows there, slowly at first, then moving up the arm, eyes closed, licking at the blood, and taking the piece of flesh that Jolene has offered her. She trembles once, hard, as her wolf rears up at the feel of the flesh in her mouth, but, she shudders again, and retains control, swallowing the flesh, and lapping at the blood, as if she would staunch the flow of it for Jolene. She looks up, blood on her lips, her eyes paled to the icy bluewhite of her wolf, and she looks at Jolene, questioningly, "I...I need to stop this, before you bleed too much. You cut with silver, and you cut too deep. Let me bandage it for you? Please?" Ever still the gentle one, who hates to see one hurt.

"Yes, Please." Jolene replies. Nodding her acceptance of Trinity's treating the wound. And then she collapses into a heap on the floor. Sniffing a moment she says, "Ah need sleep. Sleep with us tanight Trinity. Ah wanna hold ya close an' know Ah haven't lost ya."

Faith winces when Zane tells Trinity to eat, and shudders when she does so. She doesn't, however, speak. Nor does she let her power extend beyond her immediate zone.

Trinity is alarmed when Jolene collapses to the floor, but, a quick check, and she is reassured it is more exhaustion and exertion than anything else. She hurries to get the first aid kit, and sets to bandaging and tending to the wound for Jolene. She is caught off guard by Jolene's request, but, she looks at Jolene, nodding slowly, "I will. I'm here, Jolene, and I promise, whatever I learn about my other family, I won't leave. I promise you that. I'll always be here." She finishes bandaging the wound, and moves to pick up Jolene, to make her more comfortable. "Here? Or your apartment, Jolene? Where do you want me to take you?"

Ryan has arrived.

"Here.." Jolene breathes out in an exhausted voice. Jolene's power is thick within the penthouse. It's soothing, like a warm breeze on a cold day. Wrapping up any of the wolves it comes in contact with. The smell of blood is thick in the air. Trinity is in the process of bandaging up Jolene's arm, which appears to have been cut, and then had flesh taken off of it. Jolene is also standing in only her bra and her jeans. Her knives, except for one, are all sheathed and on the couch. One lay bloodied on what appears to be pale blue sweater. - The sweater is now stained, and ruined with splatters and spots of bright red blood. Zane has an arm around Faith, and had one around Jolene until she collapsed to the floor. Jolene's eyes are still closed as she says, "Here is fine.. Anyone that wants ta sleep with us can. Ah'm not the only one.." Whatever she would have said trails off as she passes out from exhaustion.

Faith picks up the sweater and the knife, very carefully. She nods to Zane, and lets him take care of Jolene. She walks into the bathroom with the damaged sweater and the highly silver knife, and shortly afterwards, washing sounds can be heard.

Ryan is rather confused by the scents that he picks up before entering the penthouse. He swallows before asking, "What's going on?" as he looks in. Nostrils flare at the scents.

Jolene's power fades from the room when she passes out.

.............Aaaah... unconsciousness..................

Scene: Jolene finally convinces Trinity that they are family.
Game: City by the Bay (pretty much DeFunct).
Characters: Jolene, Trinity, Zane, Faith, Ryan, prolly others.

Graduation Blues

2008-06-05T07:18:17Z

Three in the morning and I realize the reason I'm still up out of sorrow instead of joy is because none of the people I thought were my friends wanted to go see me graduate tonight.

I really wanted Devin and Rebecca to go too.

blindseeking @ 2008-05-14T12:04:00

2008-05-14T16:05:09Z

The most painful thing in the world is going back and trying to be someone else.

Symptoms Redux.

2008-05-08T20:33:00Z

I realize that I didn't really post an explanation of why I was listing all of my symptoms lastnight. And that it might be a good idea to do so.

Alot of the symptoms I've listed below I've actually had since I can remember or at least since my mid-teens. Of course they have gotten progressive worse as the years have gone on. To the point where they are more noticable to me now. Alot of the motor-stuff, infact, is horrible noticable and frustating. People make cracks about how I'm so clumsey, and I get really angry because I'm not. I was never very clumsey. I used to be very flexible and graceful, despite my weight. I remember that my step-dad would always get annoyed because I would always walk so quietly that he never knew when I was about until I had startled him. Now I walk kind of loudly and clumsily.

Memory. God. I used to have such a fucking wonderful memory. And sometimes I still do. Sometimes I just recall stuff like that. But sometimes I don't. Alot of the times I don't.

But, I digress, there is a reason to my listing all of the things I can think of. At somepoint in the near future I'm going to manage to get myself to a doctor. Because I've finally decided to stop hiding behind the "It's just that I've inherited fibromyalgia" excuse. I'm finally going to start listening to those little fears in that make of my head that whisper that it might be something else. Especially that it might be MS. In fact, I've secretly worried that I might have MS for a long time. But I just haven't admitted it because admitting it might make it true.

There is something seriously wrong with me. And I need to get treatment for it.

Symptoms.

2008-05-08T07:17:54Z

These are all of the symptoms I can think of off of the top of my head.

Speech Issues:
* Asphasia/Dysphasia: I have trouble speaking, words and sentences come out wrong or don't come out at all.
* Forget words: I'll be in the middle of a sentence when I simply forgot what word I wanted.
* Slurred Speech: I often have slurred words, or slowness, especially early in the "morning".

Visual problems:
* Near sightedness: This is pretty common though.
* Astygmitism: Basically, my eyes don't focus correctly. This has gotten progressively worse over the past couple of years. - I should probably look into getting new glasses soon.

Motor Functions:
* Balance: I have very poor balance. There are times were I'm not even moving where I'll feel like I'm falling over and start flailing about.
* Walking: My right ankle has this horrible habit of turning inward suddenly with no warning when I'm walking at times. I can't remember my left ever doing so.
* Fingers: Occasionally the mobility and speed of my fingers is decreased, this is usually no more than one or two at a time, and it isn't always the same finger. But normally it is the middle finger of my right hand.
* Depth: I walk into things, alot. Not because I'm not paying attention but because I think I have more space than I do. And before I realize I don't have the space, I've walked into something.
* Flexibility: I have far less flexibility in the right side of my body. An example, I can bring my left foot up onto my right knee without any help or trouble. But even reaching down and grabbing my right foot, I have troubles getting it onto my left knee.

Gastrointestinal + Urinary:
* Overactive Bladder: Somedays I feel like I have to pee every few seconds.
* Urgency: Sometimes I have to pee right now!. And even after I've gone to the bathroom I still feel like I have to pee.
* Bowel: This is generally just unpleasant for me. I often swing between diahhrea and constipation. :(
* Acid Reflux: Me pukey, lots.

Neurological:
* Memory: My memory has gotten really fucking horrible as of late. I'll have forgotten what I was doing in the middle of doing it. -- I'll walk into the bedroom to play CoH lose my train of thought on something else, and then realize I'm in the bedroom and go, "Why am I in here?" And for several minutes not be able to remember what I was doing. Sometimes I never remember what task I was going to do at all.
* Words: Again, words are an issue. I forget my vocabulary pretty easy.
* Math: A memory issue, really. But the otherday I couldn't remember the general rule for squaring something. (IE: N^2 = N x N.)
* Vertigo(?): Occasionally, I feel like the world has turned suddenly. My center of balance having turned.
* Falling: I have a strange falling sensation occasionally.
* Floating: Often I have an odd floating sensation, like gravity isn't affecting me correctly anymore.
* Restless Leg: Occasionally I experience what is called 'Restless Leg Syndrome'. There is like an inching burning, horrible sensation inside of my leg that is too hard to really describe.

Sleep & Fatigue:
* Insomnia: I have nights and days where I can't sleep no matter how hard I try, no matter how tired my body is.
* Fatigue: And then there are days where I can't wake up. I just can't get my brain thinking again. Can't get myself moving, and all I want to do is sleep, and sleep, and sleep. Or hell, I don't even want to do that. I just want to just let myself drift.
* Easily interrupted: Sometimes Ben's moving just /alittle/ will wake me right upw.
* Heavy sleep: Sometimes, Ben tells me that no matter how hard he tries he can't wake me up.

Mood:
* Mood swings: I have horrible mood swings sometimes. Sometimes I will be not happy one moment, and then suddenly very happy the next. Sometimes these mood swings are inappropriate for the situation at hand.
* Anger: Sometimes I'll get inappropriately angry at something. Or more angry than I should. Like someone will cut us off while driving and it will suddenly piss me off for an hour or two. Or someone on a mush will say something in a pass comment that really wasn't meant to make me angry but I'll be angry at them for days afterward. (IE: An example of Ryn making a comment about 'good to finally have a real doctor on episodes with us!').
* Depression: Sometimes I fall into a horrible, horrible, horrible depression for no real reason. I will be so horribly depressed that I think everyone will be better off without me, or I have the urge to hurt myself.
* Europhia: On the other side of the coin there are times where I am just happy for no real reason, really. Everything just makes me happy and no one can get me down. - Until they do, and then I crash really hard.

Immunological:
* Immune system: Immune system? that's that? I don't seem to have one.
* Infections: I am very prone toward infections, especially ear, nose, or throat infections.

Oddities:
* Caffiene Allergy(?): Caffiene depresses me, and too much of it makes me suicidal or aggravtes my desire to hurt myself.

...Those are what I think of right now. :/

MU* random comments of the delirious.

2008-05-07T17:39:41Z

You say, "Sometimes, when I stretch, it's a bit like an orgasm. I've not figured out why."
Lyle can't say he's had that.

heheh!

2008-05-07T13:21:30Z

That made me smile. :D

Pearl.

2008-04-30T08:18:34Z

Not a day goes by where I don't worry about my little sister.

God. Please let me get to a place where I can have her come live with me before it's too late to salvage her education and life.

XP-Spend Frustrations.

2008-04-26T19:16:42Z

============================| View Job Number 408 |============================
Bucket: XP Due On: Fri May 2 19:37:45 2008
Title: Presence 4 Assigned To: Koi
Opened On: Thu Apr 24 19:07:16 2008 Status: Yellow
Opened By: Kera
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Kera added on Thu Apr 24 19:07:16 2008: Hey folks. I'd like to raise Kera's presence to 4 for the following reasons:

Kera is primarily and always will be a social character, and particularly a presence-heavy person. She makes it a habit whenever she leaves the hallow to have new face on, putting on a new performance. A force of personality to show the world. She is almost always doing something to be one of the most noticeable personalities in the room, one of the most tangible. Presence (though expression is often coupled with it) is one of my most used stats. Usually it is coupled with expression because she is a performer, an actor in her own little play. Trying to make herself more "real" so no one will see how intangible she feels at times.
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Koi added on Fri Apr 25 17:49:45 2008: Mail sent to Kera:

Can you give me some concrete examples of moments when she uses her Presence to its most effect? As you are raising to level 4, you are pushing beyond the 'average' realm of ability and into the truely talented. At what point has she used force of personality to get her way, or to argue successfully with other people or supernaturals? :)
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Kera added on Fri Apr 25 19:37:44 2008: Examples- and these are off the top of my head and not all of them:

* Every time I +harvest I use my Presence+Expression skill to "tell a scary story to harvest fear".

* I have had a scene that Clover run where Kera primarily tried to use her "calming personality" to keep a couple calm. http://hauntedmemories.isunlimited.net/wiki/Logs:SigningsC_part_1

* In a scene with Jack I started it off with a presence + expression roll for singing, and got 5 success on the roll. They then started to argue with each other. http://hauntedmemories.isunlimited.net/wiki/Logs:Noone_Expects_The_Spanish_Inquisition

* In another scene I once more opened with a singing. The roll once more being five successes. (*sniff* If I got rerolls on expression it've have been 9).

I can give a more extensive list if you require it.
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============================| View Job Number 441 |============================
Bucket: XP Due On: Sat May 3 11:11:41 2008
Title: Rite 1: Shared Scent Assigned To: AQ
Opened On: Sat Apr 26 00:22:26 2008 Status: Yellow
Opened By: Hannelore
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Hannelore added on Sat Apr 26 00:22:26 2008: I'd like to pick up the level one
Rite 'Shared Scent' for Hannelore. She is an Ithaeur so rituals and rites are
an affinity of hers, and come somewhat naturally.
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AQ added on Sat Apr 26 10:21:23 2008: Mail sent to Hannelore:
Hey, Hannelore. You're right. Rites do come more naturally to Ithaeur, and
that's reflected in the lesser XP spend.

Still, you do have to find somene to learn it from. Is there a PC you plan to
learn it from? If you don't know of one, I might be able to help you out
there. I suggest asking around briefly and seeing what you find. Once you
find someone, you can learn it from that character in live RP or downtime,
whichever you prefer.
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Hannelore added on Sat Apr 26 10:39:14 2008: What happens then, when I get to
the point where I want to learn level 4 and level 5 rites that there aren't
any PCs that have to learn it from them?
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Hannelore added on Sat Apr 26 10:41:09 2008: For that matter any level of rite
that no one has bothered to pick up just because it hasn't appealed to anyone
else?
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AQ added on Sat Apr 26 10:44:13 2008: Mail sent to Hannelore:
We create options with NPCs if there are no PCs to learn from. You can always
go off-grid and learn from an NPC, if it's storytold and done well. That has
happened several times. My suggestion is to ask first among the PCs to see if
someone has that rite. In fact, try your own pack first. (Hint hint. :) )
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Hannelore added on Sat Apr 26 11:11:40 2008: You can go ahead and close this
out, given how little time I have to roleplay these days the requirements for
this simple XP expenditure do not equal what I would get out of it.
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blindseeking @ 2008-04-15T16:25:00

2008-04-15T20:26:32Z

HEHEHEHEH.

Luka sent me a happy birthday.wav. xD He sang me happy birthday in Slovenia.

blindseeking @ 2008-04-15T02:31:00

2008-04-15T06:31:39Z

Yay Thenomain! Looks like my song search is over.

blindseeking @ 2008-04-15T01:46:00

2008-04-15T05:48:20Z

Happy F'ing Birthday Cobalt.

As your 21st birthday present? We're giving you nephritis!

blindseeking @ 2008-04-12T04:41:00

2008-04-12T08:42:58Z

Anyone who can find me the first song in this video will have my love forever and ever.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=sYvJU8YMVy0

blindseeking @ 2008-04-09T11:52:00

2008-04-09T15:53:57Z

My friend send me the most awesome of awesome cards!

:D:D:D

More on hurt..

2008-04-05T23:40:08Z

Well,

Halmar at least has emailed me. I won't detail the email. But it helped relieve my feelings of being over looked by him. However I spoke to Kevin and I'm feeling less... Well right in my belief that he has given me very little thought.

You paged Kevin with 'So.'
Kevin pages: Hey.
You paged Kevin with 'What's shakin'?'
From afar, Kevin is roleplaying, is all. Trying to enjoy the short amount of time that I have online.

And that was the extent of the conversation.

SPOILER: Reaction to BSG.

2008-04-05T23:13:53Z

THANK YOU GOD BSG IS ON FRIDAYS AGAIN!

Oh. My. God.

When Tigh shot Adama? Ben (not the SO, Ben from the Cam) and I were the only ones watching at the moment. And it was so funny.

Me: No..
Ben: What?
Me: No!
Ben: What? What? Wait, What?
Me: Nooo!
Ben: What oh my god!
Me: Nooo-

Now it shows that it was a black out.

Me: *Slack jaw*
Ben: Oh my god, haha.

It was.. one of those moments..